"do you need me, like i need you, or am i standing still?"--jewel

hiiiiiii

so there's not really anything that happened today..i ate a lot of fast food...le ended up sleeping in my room last night b/c my roommate's gone and she was up late doing her paper in here, after almost burning down the building...awesome...anyways, i woke up and was going to study but ended up looking for jobs, and i found 4 decent ones, 3 in dallas and one in austin..so we'll see...all differnt sorts of media planning or something along those lines. pray for that!

i ate a lot of fast food! mmmmmm...i can feel the clogged arteries now...anyways, mark and i did some of the review for the final while le worked on her paper and before i knew it, it was class time!! eeeeeee, my last paper ever was turned in!! yay! and i got my final back and got a 90! so that was awesome!

anyways, it's already 1115pm, and the christmas tree was finally lit in rockefeller so we're gonna head down there around 1230 and chekc it out...take soem pictures , but it was sprinkling earlier so i hope it doesn't rain while we're there...hopefully the crowd has died down.

anyways, i need to study...gotta get to the MoMa early tomorrow...eek, my last final ever!

peace out

"and it feels like home, and it feels always, and it feels like coming home"--shawn colvin

hey hey
i know all of y'all thought i had left and gone for good, but no worries. just been in texas for the past week...

so i spent this past weekend half in austin and san antonio..i got kind of sick on friday, (i know my immune system stayed up for the entire 3 months in new york, but once i got around my family, i finally hit rock bottom and acquired an incredibly sore throat within a 1 1/2 hour drive from dallas to waco) anyways, i had dinner with my dad and then went to have coffee (cider) with bundy which was great. i was so glad to see a friendly face :) came home, tried to stay up to watch colin farrell on conan but i couldn't because i'd just drank about a gallon of nyquil...needless to say, i felt much better on saturday and my mom and i left to san antonio and i saw so many cousins and family members, it was way fun...not to mention we went to patty's and i had mexican food!!!!!!!!! i even ate some of erica's...lol..i had been deprived...so i saw a lot of family and got to play a lot with candy (my fav. niece ;)) anyways...sunday we came back to austin and i just chilled out, got my pictures developed, and half packed, hung some of my clothes up, put together graduation invitations and watched "love actually"

so i bought this book called "quarterlife crisis", about the time of transition b/w graduation and the next part of your life, and it's not really uplifting or anything or has any wonderful words of wisdom, but it's nice to know that people go through the same sort of ups/downs and depressions that i am going through right now...makes me feel more normal i guess...

anyways, i'm back in new york...it only took me like 2 1/2 hours to get to the lambs but WHATEVER, stupid super shuttle, that's the last time i TAKE YOU! actually, they're really good at picking you up for your flight, but not for going to the airport to wherever your destination is. then i went to blitch and le to mcdonalds for a "family" dinner..lol. i haven't eaten fast food since i've left here, so it was alright.

i'm glad i finished my paper this week b/c i'm really tired and i still am not 100% better..tomorrow i'm devoting to studying for my VERY LAST FINAL EVER! and then turning in my paper and going to the christmas tree lighting in rockefeller center.

anyways, my room is already half empty it's kind of weird.

i had really mixed feelings flying into la guardia tonight, the city is lit up liek a freakin' christmas tree from up in the sky...and it's amazing...then i got to baggage claim and everyone looks pissed off and then while drivin around the upper west and east sides, i rememebered why i didn't really like it here

anyways peace out...

ps. ellen had colin farrell on this morning while i was packing ...sorry andy...i was really excited to watch that. you know...line dancing is kinda cool

4 days until i'm back in texas for good
19 days until graduation...wow

"and wouldn't it be nice to live together in the kind of world where we belong"--the beach boys

where is my home and what have you done with it exactly?

besides the fact that i had oh so much fun in waco with my andy....:)

i'm at my brother's house right now, in the "private suite" aka, my nephew's room..my sister and her 2 kids will be here in less than an hour i'm sure, and i'm trying to enjoy the quiet time i have left, seeing that by thursday (yes tomorrow) there will be at least 10-11 people in this 3bedroom/2 bathroom house...awesome

besides that, i left my car in waco, my house in austin is now not only having the floor torn up for new tile and wood floors, but now because of some nasty animal in our pipes, the whole house has been flooded over by a sewer system...dont' ask me how, i don't know, i don't even want to know...all i know is that instead of seeing the 'retns today i won't see them tomorrow and thta's not any fun...soo..basically my house is on the edge of destruction...

also, brian emailed me back, basically my screenplay sucks, so that's awesome...also i have to re write my paper (awesome) and do my study sheet for art and the moving image final...awesome, oh yeah and the moma when i get back, and oh yeah, FIND A FREAKIN JOB!

*sigh*...i'm sleepy

good news? my brother's wireless is amazing! yessssssssss

peace out.
and happy early turkey day

"is this the place i've been dreaming of?"--keane

so i feel like i have legitimate reasons to update today, seeing as it's thursday and i haven't written for a few days and most of my stuff is out of the way...
all i have left to do is pack all of my room into 2 suitcases and write down some quotes for my next paper because at 4pm today i finished my 1st one!! yesssss...

so even though it's almost 5, i am going to take a quick break to reward myself...

this week has been very stressful although once we got an extension on our papers and the final wasn't as deathly as i thought, i was very very relieved. so tuesday after the final, we took a small break, but i stll wanted to work some, so i did on my script...anyways, wednesday rolled around and after a looong class and review session, i finally buckled down and researched a bunch of quotes and stuff...which was very helpful today when i went to work, and didn't do much but send out licenses and worked on my paper all day.

what a bittersweet week it's been. i was happy it was my last day of work, but sad to leave my bosses and think that was the last time i woudl walk through that elevator lobby :( *sigh*...anyways, enough is enough, they were sweet and gave me a small going away gift..awww...also i had my last class EVER of college last night, wow...and i am 1 paper, 1 final and 1 month away from graduating! that is soooo crazy!

anyways, i'm goign to chill out for a few minutes and then start packing, then probably eat, want to go to virgin megastore and buy a few movies ,then come back to start researching for my next paper ..aaargh...i am SOOO almost done AND i'll be in texas by this time tomorrow!!!

1 day until home
15 days until home for GOOD
30 days until graduation...wow

"she just goes stumbling through her memories, staring out onto grey street"--dave matthews band

i am too tired to blog
here is what you need to know, dont' be scared if i dont' update, i am just stressed out because i have 40,000 things to do before i leave ON FRIDAY! :)
but booo for papers and screenplays and finals and even shopping...what happenend to my time??

lunch tomorrow with the bosses, and more and more studying, final @ 7pm, and paper writing, plus buying eyeliner at sephora (hey, some things just have to be done)

sooo freakin' tired...

peace..o...u...t

"ooh baby, here i am, signed, sealed, delivered, i'm yours"--stevie wonder

hey hey
long time no update, i know this, but nothign super exciting has happened...we had to go to this art lecture on thursday and about 95% of us didn't understand a word this man was saying and mark blitch actually fell asleep next to le and i..niiice...anyways, its been ridiculously cold here, it was claimed to almost snow this weekend, but it didn't

saturday, i had lunch with keija at this place called chango's, it was SOOO good! and the brunch gave you unlimited mimosas or bloody marys...hellooooooo, niiice. it was really great to see her and catch up and she's doing really well out here! then came home, went to the library, eh...fun fun, let me tell you..then i was gonna go get indian food with caleb, but my mimosas started bubbling in my tummy, so i didn't feel very well for most of the evening...eventually le and i went to europa with blitch and got some food, we thought about seeing a movie, but to no avail...we were beign lazy bums..we eventually started playing monopoly around 12 in the area by the mail and laundry room..hah..wow, we're AWESOME! it lasted liek forever..and i thought i was going to make a killing with just the dark purple monopoly, but *sigh* i did not! :(

anyways, nothign exciting but i'm goign home in FIVE (5) DAYS!! i am WAY excited about that, but not excited about the papers, screenplay and exam i haev to do before i leave...ehh...

peace out

"[i'm] all bundled up in blankets, i'd give anything to be there with you now"--john michael montgomery

so tonight this guy came to talk to our class and give us pointers on resumes/cover letters and interviews..it was very helpful, it coudelnt' have come at a better time

keija and i are gonna have lunch on saturday, yay!

the little theater where we have class was sooo cold tonight we had to have part of our class in the common room..

le and i spent several minutes listening to gulley sing for us and make up silly songs, my favorite? something about the red sweatpants i was wearing. i dont' know, it was funny though, i think i laughed for like 15 minutes STRAIGHT! whooooo

we had another fire drill...this time i didn't attempt to go outside, as the second i stepped onto the bottom floor, the alarm stopped and its like, oh i dont' know, 10 degrees outside? yeay RIGHT!

peace out

"it might be a quarter life crisis, or just a stirring in my soul"--john mayer

holy hell! i graduate in 39 days!

good news? i found about 5 jobs to apply for today that i am qualified for, would enjoy, and would get good salary + benefits...pray for the lake dallas one! :)

bad news? i am pretty much assuming that thanks to john mayer lyrics, i'm about to have a quarter-life crisis...just a few years early...i only have about a total of 14 days left in new york which is both making me sentimental and content all at the same time.

crisis? where do i want to live? what am i gonna do if i don't get a job soon?? things i shouldn't worry about quite yet i know...but i want to be on my own so bad...so so bad....

oh real world, why did you have to come up behind me so quickly?

current emotional state: frazzled and confused

ps. my bosses are WAY funny, i'm going to miss them!

leaving you with 2 songs:

I rent a room

and I fill the spaces with

wood in places to

make it feel like home

But all I feel's alone

It might be a quarter life crisis

Or just the stirring in my soul

Either wayI wonder sometimes

About the outcome

Of a still verdictless life

Am I living it right?

Am I living it right?

Am I living it right?

Why, why georgia why

So what, so I've got a smile on

But it's hiding the quiet superstitions in my head

Don't believe me

Don't you dare believe me

When I say I've got it down

Everybody is just a stranger but

That's the danger in going my own way

I guess that 's the price I have to pay

Still, "Everything happens for a reason"

Is no reason not to ask yourself

If you are living it right

Are you living it right?

Are you living it right?"

--why georgia, john mayer

************************************

"Welcome to the real world", she said to me

Condescendingly

Take a seat

Take your life

Plot it out in black and white

....

They love to tell you

Stay inside the lines

But something's better

On the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school

I wanna scream at the top of my lungs

I just found out there's no such thing as the real world

Just a lie you got to rise above

I am invincible

As long as I'm alive

--no such thing, john mayer

"i just want someone to say to me, i'll always be there when you wake"--blind melon

hey hey...

what up? so today i really didn't want to get up, i was up on the phone with my andy and it was sooo cold today!! i just wanted to stay under the covers, that's ok, i can save that for wednesday..appaerntly it's snowing up north...wheee...tonight it was liek 35 degrees!! brrrr...

so work was fine, my bosses are taking me to lunch next tuesday which is way nice of them, so i'm really excited about that! :) i started looking for jobs...and eh...it's kind of discouraging..but hopefully i'll find something...please pray for THAT! also, clay finally emailed me back today! he said he hasn't gotten aNY of my emails..argh! so i had to email them all to him so he could know that i wasn't just leaving him out in the cold...anyways i worked, music researching, etc until 4, and came home and i really wanted to take a nap, but i got caught up int he common room watching TRL with blitch and seeing that destiny's child is like oh i don't know, a block from our house...which is neat..so i just chilled in there until le came back from taking joel to the airport, then we (le, me, and the marks) went to redeem our free meals at mcdonalds...awesome..then went to blockbuster...FREEEEEEEEZING!!!!!!!!!!!!! geez!

anyways i should work on something right now and i will...did i mention i lost my glasses? yeah and i can't find them...it's been almost a week! *sigh* ...so the highlight of my evening? gulley attempting to wrap me in bubble wrap...yeah i know that sounds dirty, but it wasn't no worries...

and shawna called me the other day to invite me to a special counting crows performance going on this week, but i can't go :( so upset, they are way good, and there would barely be anyone there...oh well, maybe next time...for now? reading, studying, writing, job hunting..wish me luck

peace out

"so far away from everyone and everything starts today, let's keep it together, can we keep it together?"--guster

hey hey
so last night, as we were watching shrek 2 at about 130am, the fire alarm went off. so we had to rush out the door...it was most likely a fire DRILL, but they figured out it was liek a faulty system or something (all b/c of jenni's super hot shower! haha, j/k!) anyway, apparently it was super serious or so they figured, because tehre was like 4 fire trucks here! so random, and weird, and they were only here for like 5 mins...at lesat if something did happen, i feel safe and taken care of. anyways, i tried to watch spaceballs, but i fell asleep...did i mention i've managed to lose my glasses?! yeah, it's ridiculous...eh

today i woke up late, as usual, but it was absolutely beautiful today, like 65 degrees and sunny. i went with blitch and emily to get groceries, i spetn liek $45, but that should cover me until i leave...AND they deliver! so blitch and i had ours delivered, yay! (they were super heavy, no way i could have carried them all that way) and....hmm, what else. keija called me today but i had missed her call b/c greg called me too, so i need to call her back. good to hear from all these people i haven't talked to in awhile. :) basically i've just been sitting around all day ..it's been nice, i had a GREAT lunch/dinner, turkey & cheese quesadilla and some noodle soup! (felt like i was home)..speaking of home i only have 12 more days! yay! soooo super excited to see everyone!

we're watching the exorcist 3 right now but it's not really keeping my attention, i'd really much rather work on my screenplay or read my book...anyways, only 6 more days left of work! eeeeeeeee....

peace out

"now i know all the wrong turns and stumbles and falls brought me here"--ben folds

hey hey
sorry for the non update yesterday...anyways, today has been pretty slow moving, so let me just recap on friday which i will call the "blast from the past day"...
anyways...the day started off late, as usual, but not before jenni steamed up one of the bathrooms so much that the fire alarm went off..awesome (lol, i just had to say it jenni!)..anywas, then i went with jenni and missy to return their books to the library and then jenni and i went to riverside park to possibly find some cool picture spots...eventually jenni found some, but not until the end. it's a nice park that runs all along the hudson river. at the end, we found what was called a "dog run" and it's just this fenced in area where people can take their dogs, and let them off their leashes and they just run around and play wtih other dogs...basically it's a playground but for dogs..it was SOOO cute, i just wanted to take all of them home!!! *sigh*

back home, and for dinner i went with blitch, hawkins and whitney to chevy's, which i will really have to veto becasue their food is just SOOO disgusting and i spent way too much money there for bad food. then came home and chilled out for awhile... robin called me around 11 and was like what's up, blah blah, and asked if i wanted to go out and get soem drinks adn i was like "Sure, why not" because i haven't seen you in 7 or 8 years, so i got ready really quickly, ok i just changed my shirt and grabbed a jacket and we went to this bar called "milk 'n honey" it's really like "underground" and classy looking...it is hidden in some really random part of town that i would never go by myself again, lol. and apparently only like 3000 people have thier number b/c it's not listed and to get the number you have to know someone who will take you there and then when you leave, you get their card. anyways, so you have to make reservations and stuff...another cool thing is that when you order drinks you dont' just say i want a "vodka and sprite" or whatever, you just say "vodka base, with a...sweet or sour (or whatever your preference is) and then they make the drink for you! let me tell you, i had 3 of the best drinks of my life there..first i asked for a rum and fruity taste, yum! then vodka and sweet, my favorite of the evening and last i just asked for something with strawberry taste, i have no idea what was in it, but it was very good, and all the juices were fresh squeezed...niiice..

anyways, we just caught up with all the aramco gossip and stuff, which is always funny. who's where now, etc. then shared a cab and i got home around 3 i guess, our bathroom smeleld really really RANK (and stll does) apparently someone got really sick last night, and whooo, anyways...disgusting..

so why was yesterday a blast from the past? not to mention that i went to that bar with robin, but keija from high school (and also from saudi) emailed me and was like hey whats' up, i'm in new york too, blah, blah, i'm like WHAAAAAAAT? random! and then i found out that mutaz and chris bellman live in austin now!? whatever...i guessi should start taking my job as class rep serioulsy but whatever. haha.

so right now it's halftime in the baylor/tech game and it's only 14-10(tech) but we are doing sooo well, i'm so proud of us!! yay..sic 'em bears!!
today=screenplay day..

peace out!

"i believe when i fall in love, with you, it will be forever"--stevie wonder

eeeeeeeee! today is mine and andy's one year anniversary!! :) and if you look back in the archives i said i would dedicate a special entry to why he sweeps me off my feet, so get ready to be put through super sickening love notes, becasue i will talk a lot...lol..before that though

work was good, it was so nasty, cold and rainy today ick..i walked home in the rain and that wasn't super fun..then came home, and was really really tierd, the rain here really messes up my allergies...i came home to a delivery of FLOWERS from andy ! yay!! they were beautiful pink roses! i was so excited! then le and i went to eat and then shop..it was such an icky day, wlaking in the rain, we went to h&m, payless and the Gap...and came home with nothing, what a bummer:-/ anyways, that's really it...

and here is where it gets good! ;) if you don't like lovey dovey stuff, then you can stop reading now..

why andy sweeps me off my feet, well it's been a year, and it's been an amazing year. i love that i still get butterflies when i think about or see him, love that he keeps me on my toes, never knowing what to expect, that he knows all the little things about me, knows how to calm me down, knows what i like to do, to eat, to listen to. i love that we can just sit in silence and not have to talk all the time, but when we do, we're having good conversation or laughing :), i love that we dont' always have to be DOING something to enjoy each other's company. he gives me great hugs, and i like when he picks me up and swings me around ..wheeeeee...lol. i love that he makes me feel like his queen and that he wants to give me the world. i love that he'll dance with me, that he makes me special CDs, that he calls just to say 'goodnight', that he says sweet things to me, that he supports me no matter what i do. oh boyfriend, i love you. (can you hear the tune in that last part boyfriend? ;) hahahaah) here's to many more years...
i love you andy cobbs

peace out

"right here, right now, there is no other place i wanna be"--jesus jones

well the election didn't last as long as it coudl have, i waited up until 3am and then had to peace out...anyways, i found out late this morning that kerry conceded..oh john kerry your'e a good man, and i realize that everyone is just SOO pissed off and how could Bush win, but helloo, apparently the US didn't "hate" him seeing as he won the electoral vote AND the popular vote and not by a small amount, it was almost 4 million! so whatever...anyways, i missed the riots today, haha.

i just ran some errands today and sent off a package to andy for our 1 year anniversary , which is tomorrow :) yay! we had class today and it felt liek it lasted forever, adn then we had a "meeting" in the hall and this followed by a group "cleaning party"...wheeeeee, how much fun was that.

so today i slipped on my ladder and pretty much landed on my ass on the floor...that really sucked and really hurt...my back hurts now and at the time i felt like i dislocated my shoulder...niiiice...well now i'm hungry and it's almost midnight, so i guess it's midnight snack time!

tomorrow is thursday...work, and?? FINDING work..

i ordered my graduation invitations, i got 60 but for $8 more i could get 15 more..so we'll see how that goes.

peace out

"i've been thinking about you"--londonbeat

happy birthday borrego!

happy presidential election day!! (go bush!)

happy day, i have my resume all prettied up and on one page! i had a great day at work even if i had to stay late becasue my boss gave me more "responsibility" even if i have to ask a billion questions, she was really nice about it and i felt important!

i wish thanksgiving wasn't such a big deal, i jsut want to see my family, my andy, my puppies, my friends and sleep in my own bed..that's all i ask...just know that i'm going to be sending out resumes starting friday and who knows where i'll be when i come home...

i want a puppy, really bad!

we just went down to democracy plaza, i wish i had my camera, it was really cool, on the ice skating rink in rockefeller center, there's a big map of the US, and some guy is spraypainting the states blue or red depending..cool..also, on the building, there's 2 ribbon looking things (they're big), but one's red and one's blue and as the electoral votes go up towards 270, so do the ribbons..neat...hmm

tomorrow is my day off..what shall i do? stay away from the riots i suppose, lol

peace out my honeys

pictures!!

well, since it's a new month, and nothing really exciting is goign excpet my resume will be doen tomorrow and i can start job hunting, i figured that i'd leave you with some pictures from random new york moments..enjoy! :)


jenni, traci, kenzie, matt and me..(i'm looking really confused)


me, jenni and traci at bubba gumps


le, jenni, blitch, wiggy, me, traci, kenzie and allison at bubba gumps


me and le after seeing chicago!


blitch and me, while blitch is seriously into the McDonalds Monopoly game


me and le in the subway after a lecture at the university club


me and le once again, being dumb in the subway


blitch, jenni, kenzie and wiggins in the subway acting very wealthy


the marks, being big goofballs


le, me and jenni...halloween..aren't we pretty?


lindsey, le, me and jenni....halloween !

ENJOY!
peace out